is that I want to be rich and I want to be normal and I want to be unique. I want to be exceptional, and I’m always judging myself against everyone else. I’m tired of it and yet I can’t escape it. It’s probably why I went into writing, but even then I wasn’t thinking clearly, otherwise I would have known that this enterprise, which seems to be diminishing against the crush of e-book readers and mindless idiots who like consuming passively, i.e. through the TV.

And I guess this is inextricably tied to the success of my friends or acquaintances. Why do I always have to compare my life to them, and why does it always feel like I’m falling short. Stupid and vain, I know, but when has knowing given you the power to change things.